searching...

there seems to be an inherent road block that exists between single people - particularly those of the opposite sex. it's one that i've come to accept, but frustrating none-the-less.

case in point, a friend who i met in the fall and was tight with... we would hang all of the time and things were cool... randomly, late spring... he vanishes. emails stop, phone calls not returned. gone. just like that.

one can't force another to not detach. all you can do is let it go. i learned that a long time ago.

interestingly enough, just the other day i ran into people on the bike and said friend's name came up (randomly - not because of me)... and it sounds as if he's back with an ex. and another friend mentioned a sighting with a female around town.

good for him. i hope he's super happy.

BUT - why does this mean that we no longer are friends? i've gone through this many times over now. friends fall in love, get married, move away. communication becomes limited to pictures of little baby joey smearing chocolate birthday cake all over his face or burping up strained peas, intermixed with the occasional hallmark card - "i miss you - visit soon".

seems like the more this happens, the less inclined i am to truly open up to new people and consider them good friends.

do friends temporarily fill voids while we search for that perfect one? does a relationship or marriage supersede any friendship no matter how deep or developed? or do the single ones fill the voids and then you meet married, more stable ones that are less inclined to "disappear"?

???