unsettled settled

summer has flown by... filled with travel and exploration... but dominated by work. i feel drained and detached and secluded from the false warmth of the bubbles in which i once resided.

the driving force for pushing so hard has been hazy and undefined. i knew the force was there but wasn't quite sure what was fueling it. recently i was looking through pictures of travels in the past year or two, realizing the joy and freedom felt on the road. a certain tension built in these moments as i compared the somewhat settled and rooted bubble i'm planted in now with the free and floating path enjoyed on the road.

I've been working for years to feel settled, to grow up, to follow the path that the world around me suggests is best... only to realize that i crave just the opposite. only to realize that these physical walls around me, and the comfort of my home are falsely secure.

and so... i push on, to finish what i started. and along the way i simplify... and then i float wherever the world calls me, that's where i'll go next. it can't come soon enough...