jump

This past week has been marked by a plethora of varying emotions and actions...

anger
joy
pride
annoyance
happiness
dancing
laughter
anticipation...

so many emotions in such a short period of time. it's almost good that i'm hitting the high skies in just a few days to absorb and reflect upon it all.

Thursday night we hit zenos to see chris byrne rock the house. music was fun - dancing was even more fun - special thanks to my awesome dancing compadre ofcourse! as was being surrounded by truly good, special people.

eric graduated this week! yay for him! his graduation ceremony was not so exciting, but seeing him accept his degree certainly was. i was proud!!! we celebrated all day starting with a little fiesta at freeze thaw, moving on into the evening to Zenos (of course!)... cyclists were out in full force and it was so much fun.

i've spent the past week trying to not only prepare for this trip, but also spend as much time with friends who i won't see for 3 weeks! i'm going miss everyone. This past week has made me realize how lucky i really am to have so many different, special people in my life. different people from different circles who can appreciate different things and have different common interests.

and, in recent news, i'm contemplating jumping...
jumping entails letting go of past baggage, pain, struggle, etc and allowing yourself to open up to something new in your life. it's been a few years now. i've blocked enough people out. i think it's time.

it's a scary thing. and of course, no decisions need to be made now as it's way too fresh and there's no need for pressure. as new as it is, it makes me happy. so why not live in the moment and not worry so much about what the future might bring?

if there's one thing that i've learned in life - i can jump and fall but i'm pretty adept at picking myself up and getting back on my feet. if u don't jump, you'll never know what you might be missing and you'll end up continually searching for something that you won't allow yourself to find.