reflect

the past two years has included tumultuous ups and downs.

i've learned to let go of the past.
i've learned how to start all over.
i've learned that there are some really special people in my life right now -- who have been really good to me during some intense times.

within a short period of time
i've made new amazing friends. and made and lost others. and realized that the ones who are still around - they are the ones who matter.

i've experienced both sides of the spectrum - neither of which were suiting - from refusal to open up, never saying enough - to saying too much, too soon and opening up my life to others before given the chance to open it up myself.

i've learned that i can be my own rock - as cliche as that sounds. and that it's ok to let some strangers in.

i've learned that laughter trumps stability, familiarity, comfort and likeness - any time of the day. that imperfection can be perfect. and that is the one i seek.

i've learned that sometimes never isn't truth. and that anger and pain can perhaps be resolved - if given enough time.

this resolution can bring the greatest comfort. knowing many years were not in vain.

so much learned -- about myself -- about them all - about those few.
sometimes i forget to slow down and reflect. and appreciate what i have - right here, right now. in the end, it's all that matters.