slowing down

i'm notorious for taking on too much. u want to do things, and know that you can do them efficiently, but forget that time to yourself and time with friends maintains sanity and composure.

the hardest part about taking on a lot is having to let go of things you truly enjoy doing. having to continually back out of going out, getting together, riding, etc because you know if you do those things, you'll slip and fall behind.

i feel like i need to send out a blanket apology to my friends that would go something like this...

i'm sorry for ...-- insert proper verb here - such as backing out, not returning your call, not calling, etc etc--..., and while we're at it this apology encompasses and extends through mid november at which point ou're obligated to come out and celebrate with me as exam hell will have passed.

Then again, i'd like to think my real friends know that i still care even if i've been somewhat of a self-absorbed and mildly book-obsessed friend for the past few weeks.

today was a day off. and today i made some changes including

1. talking to my boss about an abbreviated work schedule to allow catchup time and extra sleep.
2. finishing up the last of my web work that i've been slowly chipping away at - pro bono work which i enjoy doing but struggle to find time to complete
3. worked a regular 8 hour day, went to our grad meeting and CAME HOME and did NOTHING but play with my bikes and my dog. what a concept.

and in fact it was the first evening in close to a month that i didn't study - at all. it feels weird but i needed a day. and the day has passed - now the night calls.

over and out.