sleepless

sleepless nights have plagued me as of late. it's a combination of many things on my mind, most of which involve study, family and life. today it took its toll as i woke up feeling completely devoid of energy.

lucky enough i was able to take a day off from work, study at home and even squeeze in a nap and a walk with chaya. what a difference that made as my head has stopped spinning, i'm feeling more coherent and finally able to focus again.

i've spent time wondering where i'll end up. school and work have always been such a focus however, i'm slowly realizing that the material rewards, goals & promotions achieved, degrees earned and so on that both provide still don't fill certain voids that are seemingly paramount to true happiness and fulfillment. it's taken so long to figure this out; now it's time to wonder...

is it too late?

only time will tell.