sometimes they all...

from time to time i contemplate people and their respective interactions. actually all of the time is a bit more realistic. it seems that, for the most part, people are only interested in what suits their needs at any particular time. there are many friends and relationships out there however a very VERY select few truly consider others as individuals who are true people as opposed to individuals that some way, some how, suit their needs.

i've gotten to a point where i can accept that fact that many people, if not most people, generally suck... this acknowledgment allows one to generally interact with others, accepting the fact that they might ultimately turn, disappoint, etc, etc... accept - move on. it happens.

it's like the ex who cheated on you. or who u gave everything and in return he took everything he could. or the one who decided he'd no longer talk to you - who knows why.

it's a funny funny world when you contemplate these things and try to make sense of them. opening up to someone yields vulnerability and sometimes - sometimes they really just don't care or can't see past their own life bubbles. then you realize that other people's decisions are theirs to make - good or bad - mean-spirited or well intentioned. and all you can do is move forward, finding happiness in the little things around you that could be fleeting, but at the moment are beautiful and rewarding.

maybe this is why we are all, for the most part, searching for that one person who will see the other as beautiful on all levels and accept. because atleast we know that when everyone else around us disappoints, that one will still be there - with best intentions in mind.

still there are some days when they all just suck. come to terms with it now. it's not worth a fight.